Casey Scott: ‘In that moment, I knew I needed help’
The thing about Rock Bottom is that it isn’t the same for everyone, but everyone has one. Some fortunate people will never have to see theirs; others will discover that their rock bottom keeps going deeper. For me, my rock bottom was a culmination of all. I found my rock bottom lying on my back, staring up at the skies, with sirens flashing, and people crying.
In that moment I knew I needed help, and I’m not talking medical or legal help. What I needed was help getting back to being the person I used to be in the eyes of my kids, family and in the mirror. The crazy thing was the help was always there. My kids and family had noticed a change in me; I had noticed a change in me. I thought to myself, I’m a fairly smart man and I can figure this out. But, believe me when I tell you, I tried and tried and tried.
So there I was staring up at the sky, listening to sirens, and in that moment I found my rock bottom and I knew I couldn’t figure it out alone. As soon as I got home I called a Detox Center and checked myself in. I wasn’t sure what a Detox Center was, but I figured it would be a good place to start. I spent 7 days there.
While inside, I was introduced to the Pinnacle Recovery Center. Now mind you, I wasn’t sure what I was going to do, I was only sure of what I didn’t want to do. I didn’t want the life I currently had. I ended up going to Pinnacle Recovery for 45 days. While I was there, I took a deep dive into myself to try and figure out why I was doing what I was doing. I can tell you that in my life I have been lucky enough to experience some amazing things, but one thing I will be eternally grateful for is my time at Pinnacle Recovery.
I know I have let a lot of you down and I live with that everyday. I took for granted all the gifts and blessings in life that I had been given. I wish I had a clear explanation for why this all happened. However, I can tell you that while today my life is a lot harder than it has ever been, I am the happiest I’ve been for a very long time. I have a new mission in life, and that is to be the best father, brother, son, and all around person I can be.
I’m not asking for forgiveness, because that can only freely come from you. What I’m asking for, if you will allow, is a thought, a prayer, or for you to have a conversation with a loved one who might be suffering. And some day, God willing, I may have a chance to show you the man I’ve always wanted to be…
– Casey Scott